Carmen the Incredible Wonder Gurl

oh?

2011-07-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

搬家？离婚？

应该没什么大不了。

只有朋友的存在。

但，我的朋友都不在。

2011-06-30T10:06:00.001+08:00

I miss u and I want to talk to you. Can you please talk to me? :( :(

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jump

2011-06-30T07:50:00.001+08:00

每一次伤心失落的时候都会有要跳楼，吸烟的冲动。

Haha?!

Gg

2011-06-30T02:08:00.001+08:00

You said I was cold to you, who is colder now?! Mcb..

You are a bitch. BITCH!

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suck

2011-06-29T00:50:00.001+08:00

How i wish i could travel back time,

and amend all my mistakes.

Life sucks.

I suck too.

s

2011-06-28T13:37:00.002+08:00

Whatever mistake that had done in the past,
Whatever issue that was handled badly.

Now i have to face everything.
It's my fault.

sorry

no chemistry

2011-06-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

Chemistry?

You Failed.

2011-06-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

May we all be blessed with longevity

Though far apart, we are still able to share the beauty of the moon together.

n

2011-06-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

人来，人往

慢慢地，已经习惯一个人。那孤独的生活

。。

每一次都有一刹那的冲动。

每一次错过那一刹那的冲动，是不是也错过了那一次的机会？

pinch

2011-05-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

老天爷，我不和你拼了。

谢谢您，把我的心缝了几针。

这几针真的很痛。

我的生活不精彩，也没活得比人快乐。

我的笑容不灿烂，快乐的笑容也不是从心底发出来的。

没安全感，没人理的感觉，

不尝试，那种痛是理解不到的

看戏是看到好精彩，好好看。完全是没体验到痛

如今的我，已是现实中的女主角

可以深深地体验到那种痛。

哭，都把泪哭干了，

血，也已流干了。

您要我孤独，好吧。

您要我受苦，好的。

why

2011-05-20T01:44:00.002+08:00

明明是被动，偏偏就是要做主动那个。

就是死都不认输。

我就等。

regret

2011-05-14T17:23:00.002+08:00

还记得我曾经讨厌过的朋友，李湘儿。

在我失落的时候坐在我身旁，

逼我说出我的伤心事

说真，分担后真是很舒服。

现在我就抱着这些回忆而流泪。

后悔莫及

i lost everything

2011-05-14T16:24:00.003+08:00

累

Maybe i am just expecting too much from people,

People come, people go.

indeed. it is very heart wrenching.

Here comes a sudden breakdown

no one cares, no one bother

People go on with their lives.

People said,

you just need 1 true friend beside u

where is my true friend?

How come i can feel the distance?

I always put people around me part of my life, do they do the same thing to me?

When i am not around, do they even think of me?

I doubt.

Well, perhaps when they need help or money.

Some people just want to find a friend as a companion when they are lonely

when they are not lonely,

i am gone.

well, don't even expect people to give you back what you have gave to them . NEVER.

very disappointing.

Am i isolated? or drifted apart?

or no one understands me?

Am i thinking too much?

or i am betrayed?

Am i suppose to be angry?

or just pretend to be happy?

Guess i am a perfect person. Perfect in failing in every aspect of life.

烦 - 友谊, 学业, 家庭, 爱情, 心脏痛, 自卑, 金钱

经过这一次，我深深体验到

我失去了一切

我偏偏就是过不到自己那关.

Hd

2010-12-05T15:44:00.001+08:00

岁月无情
那个有心人可以给我他的爱?

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2010-12-04T20:30:00.001+08:00

我还记得当我的朋友需要我时,不管是什么回事我都会去陪她们, 我不想逛街, 她们要我陪我都会去。她们要吃而我不想吃,我都会陪。她们在我工作时打给我,要和我出去,我都愿意找借口早回去陪她们。她们临时放飞机我都没怨。我也记得当我需要人陪时,它们当我的话是废话, 给我一个借口然后不理我了,一句话也不跟我谈了。这是我所谓还在在意也让我心疼的好朋友。

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que tu m'aimes encore

2010-12-01T15:45:00.002+08:00

I wanted to tell you. but i don't have the guts..

"Don't go, you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll always stay
When she walks away
I'll still be there for you
I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more"

I may be playful, maybe unfaithful
but i can be loyal
Deep inside my heart... is you.

little black crow

2010-11-29T00:56:00.003+08:00

-Bad news from the person i like..
-step on dog shit
-got a very stubborn and idiotic group member.. angry over an incomplete and messy slides and no -audience for our presentation, our slides is a waste of effort.
-mom asked me call the clinic to change appointment date, forget to call. thanks to the person who made me angry for the whole morning. i was really important and i forget.. KNS.
-keep on losing on mahjong.. at home and PD..
-house no water. period came
slept for 4 hours
-called the clinic again. supposed to call that clinic named puspavati and look for a person called masrad. i said im looking for puspavati and i insisted.
-texted my mom.. and i told her that i cannot look for a person call puspavati. i know im very stupid.
-called again. clinic closed. KNS
-no water, went to selangor club bra-less..
-went to the first bathroom, prepare everything (almost 5 mins).. No water
-went to the second bathroom, prepare everything again... door cannot lock
-went to the thrid bathroom, while preparing i realized i left my pads in the car
-went to the car, it was raining.. walk under the rain..
-took bath, wash my pantie..after bath realized that.. i left my bra and pantie in my car
-stunned.. call brother, in the coffee shop alone with my food, cannot leave the table
-wear my wet pantie.. braless.. without pads.. rush to the coffee shop, eat my food.. pants gettin wet
-after lunch, stand up.. pants very wet.. rush to toilet to change.. everyone;s looking at me.
-whoever talks to me. i reply another thing. and i dont even know what am i talking abt, and i still talk. (possessed)
-reached PD, went to see fireflies, boat motor tripped on something, boat almost flip.
-went for dinner, order lala, only shells are served, and we are totally ignored.
-slept on a white colour bed. scared my period overflow.. cannot sleep nicely
-next day woke up, went for pilates class braless.
-did too extreme pilate, hurt my back.. muscle extremely pain
-everyone went swimming, period came. miss the fun.. stand there and let ppl splash water
-brought bra but without strip.. took the dirty bra strip.. black bra and yellow strip. my tee can see thru, very awkward
-exhausted, bro forced to send him to school after the PD trip.
-reached home.. maid ran away
-grandma very noisy, super noisy,extremely noisy.
-grandma starts to do housework, pissed off. shouted at her
-thick face, call aunty to bring her to their house for few days, 1st aunty rejected.
-called 2nd aunty.. she sounds very reluntant.. AHH
-2 maids ran away, dad pissed off. he said no more maid
-i cannot survive without a maid
-whole body aching.. housework.. grandma noisiness..
-presentation on thursday. exam next week
-mom's coming back tmrw. maid ran away, didnt change the appointment date for her, DIE!
-heavy rain, my room got water leaking sound
-a lizard went into my room,beside my bed. no body is here to catch it for me.
-air cond remote control missing
-for the most important time my pc lags like mad and i cannot add my groupmate in msn,lost in communication, last min dedicate job for me
-bro went genting, 3D2N.. have to do everything by myself
-dad's pc got virus, will auto restart in 3-4 mins time. pissed off, i kena
-realised that idiot maid ran away with my slippers

FUCKING INDONESIANS!!!!

bahh

2010-11-08T02:29:00.001+08:00

刚刚发现，原来自己是那么的。。。不知所谓

2010-10-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

今天和一班朋友去沙滩，一日游。
任务失败了=（
对自己很失望。

2010-10-27T10:45:00.001+08:00

Haih

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love vs money

2010-10-18T18:41:00.002+08:00

昨晚竟然梦到我和一位追求我很久的人，但现在没联络了的一位先生做了夫妻。我们过着一个平平淡淡的生活。梦里，我是个思想很保守的人，嫁给他已有几个星期了，他很顾我的感受，没要求和我上床。感觉怪怪的。。但是，我很怕他。

其实我是个以貌取人的人。当时没接受他是因为他不是我杯茶。但是他的人很好，很会哄人开心，又孝顺，又顾家。和我现在喜欢的人比，都是我自己拿来的。

如果一天，你爱上了你不喜欢的人，（他开始也没想过会喜欢你，但日久生情，在你还没喜欢他前先爱上你）而那个人真心地对你甜言蜜语，行为感动了你，对你浪漫，你会对他有什么反应呢？

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有一次我发梦，梦到我是从什么都没有的小女孩突突然间变到很有钱，很富有。但是，我是单身的，没有朋友，觉得很空虚，很寂寞。一点快乐都没有。就像一位在宫中的公主。一生中享的只是荣华富贵而已。一点也不快乐。
突然间，我掉落到一间很多人的地方，那个地方不算高贵，那家人也不算很富有。但是，我觉得很开心。那种快乐，是从心里发出来的，是真么形容，也形容不到的。我开始觉得，快乐是比金钱重要多。

一大清早，梦醒时，我才体会到，原来，快乐是比钱还要重要。做人要懂得知足。但是在现实生活中，。。。

sheau wen & pn suriaty

2010-10-17T21:33:00.002+08:00

几天前，朋友生了一个可爱的小宝宝，可是。。
几天前，一位德高望重的好老师离世了。

是喜是悲？

You are always alive in my memory.

张智霖和靓靓

2010-10-11T10:06:00.005+08:00

今早在短短的一个小时内梦见了张智霖和靓靓，他们因为工作就来我家住，带着他们的孩子- 魔先生。它们住了几天但是我很少看到他们，（应该是我不在意吧）他们就连魔先生也藏得很隐蔽。看到他们时，我是看不到魔先生的脸的。我也渐渐地也把他们当透明，不存在了。一天回到家，看到靓靓刚刚回来，就从他的蓝色myvi出来，我对她笑一笑，她也对我笑一笑。我有一种很怕她的感觉。不知怎样（忘了梦的内容）。。我就和他们一家三口在附近的mamak档聊天。我就在求天叫他们不要那么快回香港。。因为这些机会很难得。突然间我们 4 个，竟然可以break the ice，我就和靓靓聊得好开心。开始觉得她很好相处，很好谈。就不知跑出一本好多广告的杂志，张智霖就给我签个大名，靓靓也签了，翻倒胡杏儿的广告是，张智霖就说他可以冒她的签名给我，也可以带回去叫她签然后给我。他们的儿子好乖，乖乖地坐在那儿，好可爱。我心想，我终于都看到了魔先生的样子！。。。。不知怎样，我梦见我在走廊一直走，那个地方好像hotel的走廊。我就走进一间房，那间房好像是我家的房（不知道这么会梦到我的家变成了像hotel的那一间）那间房很大，很豪华。里面有很多人，很多小孩，很多大人。就是因为有一件不幸的事发生了。就是魔先生被谋杀了，她躺在床上，身体有一个很明显的刀伤，我呆了，看见他们在寻找着忙着工作的张智霖，而靓靓就跪在床前，也呆了，哭了，好像有一点疯了的感觉，不相信魔先生离开了的事实。怎么会有杀手? 我也不明白。

就。。给爸爸吵醒了。

好难才有这个机会梦见他们，又零距离接触。又住在我家。。

看来我看太多戏了，也想太多了。应该是太喜欢和羡慕他们了吧。。微博都很注意他们。。

心血来潮想把这些梦记下来。因为我知道，我会渐渐地忘记。

突然间想到他们很温馨。

在玩新玩具

在屋外玩泡泡

在争DVD 机

羡慕死人！！

昨晚在微博看到了一件意想不到的事，也接受不到咯。。
那就是。。 William 陈伟霆现在和 Ah Sa 刚刚开始谈恋爱。- 姐弟恋。
在那套 beauty on duty 觉得他们不错。想不到。。想不到。。

2010-03-21T11:38:00.000+08:00

i just feel like shouting out loud.

capping streamyx?

2009-08-02T12:04:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE F**K

gill paul

2009-07-29T14:00:00.003+08:00

I didnt tell lies.

click to enlarge it.

1u with edwin

2009-06-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

anything to say, Daphne?

Bernice at 1u

2009-05-30T16:11:00.011+08:00

''They are not my friends nor my fans, they are my family''

Just For Fun

2009-05-26T13:24:00.020+08:00

Astro WLT Awards

Niece from New York

Cousin's Graduation

Bijou

Bye Bye Old House

Ian and Fan Shu before shaving

CNY at my house

The Gardens

Merry Chrismas!

Current Addiction

Last Minute Decision to drink

My new brother from Canada - John

New Year Present

Wesak Surprise

Innovation

ICE ! Takes me to the toilet.

Spider Mam . Bat Mam . Ultra Mam

DONT TALK TO ME

2009-02-21T23:50:00.001+08:00

I AM SO ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy cny!

2009-01-26T01:34:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

MOO MOO MOO MOO..~~

u guys must buy fruits and flower and pray me.

i will bless u guys..

namo amitofo.

2009-01-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

everyone thinks that i cannot. WHY

blog updated

2009-01-16T20:02:00.003+08:00

Of all the rambles, frustrations, dilemmas, and unwillingness.. plus a little but of ego, distrust, weather, family and internet. I have already started my course, which is the bachelor of psychology in Malaysia.
Why am i still here and why am I taking this course? For what i think maybe it is because my mom likes to control me. No dating, sleep at 11pm. Be her slave. My brother told my dad that US is very far, it is not cheap, i might change my decision and blah. He dint even voice out anything until the very last day, he talk so much. Of course, i was really really very angry at first. Just feel like stabbing him. I did so much of research, i called and met up so many counsellors and the decision was made. Just before the day i wanted to enrol to ADP Inti college, my dad said : why not you try doing psychology first, then after that, you can go to US or Australia if you still wants to study. Actually it is not much of my mom's fault coz she really supports me at first. I am just very angry and pissed off why she LOVES to control me. (she just came into my room and see what i do, and somehow forced me to sleep.)
At first it was Shanghai. then Taiwan, then US, and Australia, and again, US. For a person who really hates to stay at home especially being controlled and to sleep with someone who snores as loud as a gong, totally no privacy at all.. i dont know what should i say now. happy to be an optimist or sad because i was treated this way?
After much consideration, i just accept it as destiny. different people different life even if you are living under one roof. i just wish that HELP can shift to some jungle asap so i can rent a room there and get all the peace. No more sending brother to school which i hate hate hate hate HATE!! the most!!! at least it is fair enough for me, i take that as no difference as going overseas.
I hope i am happy taking psychology now, (definitely not the bus thingy) and this is not the wrong decision. At first i sob because there was hope for me to take biology and drama and suddenly... but thank god, psychology has bio psychology and i love this subject so much. Luckily Dr Hera wasnt a boring lecturer like Mr Franklin the fai chai.

You might not understand what im writing coz i write whatever that comes out of my mind first. and im so lazy to check hehe. ask me if you dont understand, this time i will tell. i promise.
I dont think it is nice telling this to everyone but i still want to tell before i go koo koo.
I hope i didnt hide anything from my friends now. i think i confess it all. =)

2008-12-12T15:06:00.002+08:00

what would you say..
when an employee goes to work.. and there's absolutely NOTHING for her to do.

sit there from 9-6, wait for breakfast and lunch..
chit chat with friends...
play offline games...
watch movie....
listen to the music...
look at the cctv monitor, see what's going on outside...

end of the day, get your salary and go back..

Is this a sign of you are getting fired soon?
or your scope of job is just to sit in front of the computer and rot?

what i want to say is...

I AM SO F**CKING BORED HERE!!!!
AND THE AIR CON IS SO COLD!!!!
... STUPID IAN!! I SHOULD HAVE BROUGHT THE LAPTOP!! so i can kill time by watching tvb.. 3 more hours to rot.......

sad

2008-12-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

i am always very lazy to blog. now, i come back with sorrows.

怎样放胆将美梦发一次

怎样放胆待这我位伤心的公主

和拨我心中的刺

I should be happy.

psychotic movi4

2008-11-18T01:28:00.001+08:00

I just did something psychotic and insane.

Oh My Gosh, I can't believe i did that !!

bye bye drum

2008-11-17T19:30:00.003+08:00

My dad said he will buy. Then he said NO due to the noise.

I am so depressed.

but he will consider this. The sound is so artificial ok!

plastic bag n box

2008-11-05T16:49:00.002+08:00

Ever wonder anyone has the same hobby with me.
i like to collect plastic bag and paper bag.

i like to keep everything in a box, and open it after some time.
and then.. Whoa.. i didnt throw this! i miss this so much.. Oh! finally, I found you! Owh! all my old toys!

and i found my collection of stickers!

everyone is going for a vacation.. hmmm.. what should i do?

funny

2008-11-04T14:15:00.003+08:00

If you ask me, What is the first thing that you will grab when your house is on fire?

i say : My friend's ugliest pictures and most humiliating stuff!

hahahahahahhaahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhaa

boring

2008-10-31T16:59:00.003+08:00

0 hours 45 mins 21 seconds till baskin robin.....

OH freezer! can u blow more cold air?

So nice playing with dry ice.

especially when i put it inside the toilet bowl

Happy Halloween!! hahahaaha

church

2008-10-31T16:48:00.003+08:00

Garrett asked me to go to puchong for some talent show night and celebrate his first anniversary. should i go?? should i??? should i??? hmmm...??

BASKIN ROBIN!! WOOHOOO!!!!! YeeEEeeEEeerrRRrr!!! i cannot eat. SHIT!

hair

2008-10-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY LONG HAIR!

Halehlujah won't attract ehem

2008-10-29T01:35:00.003+08:00

KOO ZHAO YING!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP TELLING ME GHOST STORIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I admit that i am a coward but please stop those stories which makes me scared every night.. Oh my God!
I suddenly have the urge to change my blogskin but it was almost 2am. I have the feelings that if i don't complete this i will not be able to sleep soundly. So, special thanks to miss mak, i think basically she online wanted to do something else but ended up helping me. wasted her time tim. actually i was half asleep, i don't know what am i looking at, what am i actually doing. wasnt very conscious. I just want to finish this things ASAP. She helped me out with all my html codes. I couldn't remember what actually happened that night.. *blur*. After completing, i doze off immediately. how sad. AND I COULDNT REMEMBER WHAT I DREAMT OF!!! and i knew it was a sweet dream. shit! So does this skin suits me? Hell yes right hahahahha.. Mooooooooooo!

I checked my inbox message and realized that Sin yee, Anu and MYP texted me. Someone read my message or it's my phone problem or i read it unconsciously? Hmm?
Maybe too much of ghost stories. Freak me out. So, Stop that! i don't want haloween man! so creepy~

Pretty woman... walking down the street..

2008-10-27T17:46:00.002+08:00

Suddenly when i was playing astropop. my mom came in and force me to sing. She said i have to learn how to sing, so reluctantly, i went downstairs, hold the mic and sing. After 1.30 hours of singing, mom didnt say i sang badly or what. she said i sang well (ehehhe). but i need more practice. You know, chinese words.. for cantonese songs, i couldnt pronounce properly so the song goes like.. an african song. Now i dream of being an singer, standing on the stand with billions of fans yelling for an encho. whaohahahahaa!

1 fine sunny day.

2008-10-27T02:24:00.002+08:00

Seems i didnt post any pictures in my previous post. Nah! haha..
Went to Metrojaya Warehouse sale today..OMG. the crowd was terrible and majority of them are malays. The way they grab stuffs.. especially handbags is really furious, horrible.. like there are Ferrogamo bags for free. I went straight to the cosmetic section to seek for some perfume and stuffs and unfortunately, the branded perfumes are all out of stocks =( .. and all the nice handbags are out of stocks. But nevermind, i still managed to grab some stuffs there. Seems it's dirt cheap. (I think)..

A Loreal UV perfect sunblock. No more worries driving under the sun, walking under the sun! All the while i have been applying ... bananaboat sunblock.. haha, sometimes i even smells like beach. Hmm.. i wonder is SPF 40 enough for me..? or i need 50? Too much exposure under the sun lar.

Surprise? haha. i took 2 bottles. glitters glitters! Wanted to grab more but.. don't be greedy~ the results is kinda satisfying! i likey!

Hahaha.. even lipgloss needs sunblock. SPF 15. I don't know. my mom said i have to use it one day. Maybe 1 fine clubbing day ;P but after testing it, hmm.. kinda like it thou.

Bought 1 more for spare. Different colour. no sunblock. ahaha.uhhh sexy lips! Have to get a proper handbag so i can dump everything inside.. so anywhere also can use! hehe..

someone told me that this can cause skin cancer but women out there are still demandin this product like mad. So, why not? Applied it after bath and before sleep. Wow! maybe just normal.

I am still seeking for heal balm. I know i can get that in a pharmacy opposite my house. And i want a vitamin E or alow vera cream!!!!! to heal all the stupid idiot marks. heh heh..

most importantly, HANDBAGS! since the day fluffy bite and spoilt my handbag, i dont have a proper bag when i go out. ishhh! very bad very bad. ok lar. enough of being vain. the secret of beauty is to sleep early. =D

ENJOY!

2008-10-24T00:47:00.002+08:00

Sounds like i have nothing much to talk about my life already. It's rather dull and boring i supposed. This is the life i was seeking for 6 months before, and now, i dont think it's interesting especially to kill time. I miss the time when i was working in mont kiara int school or maybe Tesco Hq, eventhough they gave me loads of work to do , i still enjoyed it. It gaves me the some sort of feeling like i have fulfilled my day with my hardwork? The feeling was great but i still wished that there are 60 hours a day. Now my day was like 120 hours a day, and i wished that time dont linger here. I miss camps, i miss hanging around with my big gang of friends, i miss trips with them, i miss performing on the stage like a superstar, BLAH! i miss everything in the past except for all the embarrassments. People always live in my memories. As they dance through my memories... i dont know what am i talking about now. Just feeling random. Fan shu didnt pee on my bed for 1 week already! Hooray! but he pee outside of my room! and i always step on it.. Fan shu had a terrible asthma attack ( i think ) just now, and stopped after 30 sec? phew~ I am obsessed with applying lotion on my skin. I think it makes me smells good.. or maybe not? Someone was shocked to hear that i applied sunblock and are concern about my skin. I stopped wearing cap because.. another random act is on their way. My computer is not fixed yet, it stills shuts down and hang and i have already spent rm700+ or more to fix it. I wonder when is my dad getting me a brand new laptop? or he is going to return me my laptop? My driving lisense is dead for like..... 2 weeks and i am too lazy to drag myself to the photoshop and JPJ to renew. I think i will go tomorrow.. ( i said this to myself everynight ).. Zhaoying loves to tell me ghost stories which terrifies me hell a lot. When my scalp is itchy, i will think of it, when i passby the cemetary i might think of it, when i go for a vacation, i might (most probably) i will think of it, when my house is out of current or when i fall sick, i will think of it. OR, when i passby the haunted hospital in cheras. Gosh, i am actually quite scared now when i am typing. I swear i will not concentrate when you guys are talking about now. Now i am scared of going to the toilet to brush my teeth! my my... 4600 words more. I am not sleeping with my brother anymore, now he sleeps in the guess room and 2 more months later i will be sleeping with my grandma. SHYT! i fought for that guess room cause i want mroe privacy at home and i won! then my dad said, why dont u sleep with ur grandma, it's so inconvenient for her if your brother is there. Why is my grandma a female? why am i a female? god~~ Have you guys think of your future? like when u are 50 years old, or 80? I always think about it. I always think of how to treat my grandchildren nicely so they will like me. hieh! and when is the day i am going to die? can i survive till the age of 100 with my husband? this is what people which have nothing better to do will think of. TOO MUCH TIME! I wish i can get a genuine authentic LV or Guess bag next year for my birthday pressie.. and i want a big wardrobe for myself to put all my clothes. ( i wish i have that much clothes ).. and a shoe rack, personal one. most importantly, my own bedroom with my own scent! I am obsessed with chinese songs thesedays, i find english songs boring.. eversince i heard those tvb artiste had their interview in 1 radio station.. maybe i find this radio station attractive? their conversation are rather funny plus! i can improve my chinese eh? next time when you guys sees me, my chinese will be damn fluent. i hope so~ I hope 1 fine day, i can speak proper english. with an proper accent. and i think it is difficult, will have lots of gossips behind it. Oh ya people, please remember to recycle, basically, i recycle all the papers at home, don't waste yea. very bad for the environment and economy. might cause recession. lol. Now i miss eating nasi lemak and sushi! but cannot! have to control if not more pimples will invade and conquer my face. but i really have the very strong desire to eat sushi now~ nevermind, hopefully i can fulfill in my dreams. Hmm.. can i dream for 12 hours and really sleep for 1 hour? This time, i want to dream of, me being miss malaysia and the awards is free sushi for my wholelife! whoahahahaha! awesome! I find going all the way to college just to surf the net is not a very good way. because the line there is slower than the snail. and the mouse in the computer lab is somwhow retarded. AND! my brother spoil my wireless adapter! he stepped on it so harshly~ benggong! wow, it's 1.45am! i am still scared of going into the toilet~ Fan shu~!! stop sleeping like a pig.. HeeEEEeeEllLLLpPPPppPP~!! i wish i can organise a camp with students and torture them with funny games. i wonder how many spelling error and grammatical error i have typed. Owh, i forgot to introduce my new dog. i brought a puppy back. my brother named her pepper. what a name~ she is a black and soon to be white silky terrier. 2 months old and is so noisy whenever i passes by. She always steal fan shu's food and eversince she came, fan shu loses 3kg. maybe pepper gained 6 kg? and i realised after bring pepper back home, fan shu staring to pee on my bed! like some sort of revenge for me. Fan shu is a coward dog, he is afraid of pepper. when pepper approached fan shu, he will run away, like tom n jerry. by the way, i miss tom n jerry since young. i watched it that day in cartoon network and laughed my head off. i still prefer the 2D version, the 3D version or the new version is not that funny and violent anymore. maybe it is rated as the most violent cartoon, so they have to change the concept? now, tom n jerry are friends, they cooperate to kill a bee or a bird or what-so-ever. i am wondering will you guys understanding what i wanted to express? or what am i talking about so far? I wish i can write this even longer so i can torture my beloved friends eyes. or maybe they already stop reading it long time ago.. this is only the fundamental training of reading a book. if you cannot pass this, i am so sorry, i feel sad for u. i am bringing fan shu into the toilet.. ciao! happy reading.

My mom is singing karaoke again

2008-10-20T22:33:00.003+08:00

I always do this when i am bombarded with assignments, especially when the due date is like.. tomorrow. Like it or hate it, yes, i always procrastinate. but is a good thing, keeps my blog alive.

Obsessed with my smile

Obsessed with my hair

Obsessed with my eyes

Obsessed with my legs

Obsessed with my body

Obsessed with my hand

Obsessed with my lips

Obsessed with my nose

Obsessed with my hips

just trying to love myself <3

Just a random one. Just being slacky and lazy..

Sexually and Mentally Harrasted.

2008-09-27T13:06:00.005+08:00

She set her target. She wanna kiss me. I was kinda reluctant...

Passionate kiss

She said i want MORE!

I did this to her...

She did this to me.

BLUEK!!! Devil WOMAN!

Even Bao wanted to kiss me

Yesterday was a real fun day. Havent been that happy for years. Basically we were laughing all the way from afternoon to evening. It's like im back to the past. everyday i will laugh. i just miss lim mee peng sitting infront of me and we always fight for small to big matter. and laugh over whatever matter and sometimes no matter. and i miss teasing n making fun of her and laugh out loud. and ofcoz the person who sits next to me. ORgh! those were the days.....

What happens when we Die?

2008-09-24T23:34:00.001+08:00

http://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20080923/hl_time/whathappenswhenwedie

i find this article interesting so i thought of sharing with u guys =)

Picture do the talking

2008-09-24T21:12:00.006+08:00

Some people didn't assemble my processor properly so if i do anything additional with this computer, it will overheat and *pooF* shut down. It's going up to 70 celsius.

I butchered my hair. It's obvious. you are only allowed to compliment me =P

My life => Eat, sleep, tv, dog, bath. conclusion, im getting fatter. heh!

xoxo

I am dehydrated.

2008-08-31T01:55:00.005+08:00

It was easy to be generous and filial during the good times but when household budgets tighten, what is the cost of true filial piety?

This show is worth watching. worth the money. trust me

and it's so touching and emotional

I CRIED a few times, tears just rolled down eventhough i hold my tears. It just flown down like a unscrew tap.

If u want to see ur friend cry, dont miss this chance! Drag them to the cinema!

Where have i been?

2008-08-30T23:51:00.015+08:00

Maybe i am bored of studying, tired of repeating .. i just enjoy working! I work from 8am to 8pm and sometimes 9pm. and its still not enough. I LOVE THAT PLACE SO MUCH! and also that job..

FYI, I worked in MKIS as a photographer, print ID cards and find those ID cards when parents come. So from 8am to 3pm, i will put a smile on my face and say 'pick up or take picture?' when parents, drivers or maids come. I miss flipping through the list and find for their name.. I love it when they praised me. and like it when they complain. btw its not my fault. heh heh heh!!

These (partial) are the pictures i stole.

Students.

This dude is a mix! A korean and a western.

I thought he is a local.

His name is Aske Dorge. Grade 8! I will never forget this guy

Parents.

They are husband and wife.

Special Guest

They wanted to take picture too

During their break time

See the games they play

They dont have any spot check, no prefects, and less school rules
They are allowed to wear whatever shoe they like, tie whatever hair style, polish whatever nail colour, pierce anywhere they like, change their pants length, bring hp to school, listen to the music in class.. do whatever they want. So cool huh? and they treat condoms as balloons. no one cares..

Our government will never set these kinda rules.
So not 'city' hahaha

People there never fail to greed people and put a big smile on their face, they love to say HI. even outside the school. or maybe the recognise me?

When i tell u that im shy. i really meant it.
I cut my hair couple of weeks ago. and i think its hideous. even me myself cannot accept.
but in the school, people thought that i am a korean

I think i better wear a cap. Looks better. isnt?

Last day of work, i am allowed to leave earlier, coz ive nothing to do. I've done everything up to date before 3pm. so basically, my last day of work is kinda non reinforcing and boring. Not much parents came. I was hoping to serve parents for the late time but nope, the last person was Anwar's driver. Yes, that Anwar u see in the newspaper everydays. so sad. and this Minister, (Dato Zaib) he couldnt come to take a picture for his ID so he sent his driver to deliver his picture. He brought a DISKETTE and ask me to go to the office to check whether our computer can read or not. That time was 3.30, school dismiss which means there will be lots of parents coming. and, I AM IN THE OFFICE testing that bloody diskette. when i come down, the crowd is clear. ma de.. last day also dont give me chance to serve them. now is 21st century leh, where got people still use diskette, u go back to stoneage la! minister pulak.

I thought it was a bad day for me.
All of a sudden, my brother asked me whether i wanna watch Avil's concert. Coz he have 2 VIP tickets... ( thats for him) and 2 more extra tickets.
So i dragged Jiayi along. Sorry man, have to sacrifice your Wall-E.

Can u see her? Can u see anything?

Look at the crowd. The stadium looks quite empty. The concert is OK. not too boring, not too nice. 1 word - Simple. But i was kinda impressed. haha.. she curl her hair, looks funny thou.

SO, NOW U KNOW WHY I CANNOT GO OUT WITH YOU? COZ IM BUSY WORKING. EARN MONEY. GAIN EXPERIENCE. SOCIALIZE. LEARN MORE THINGS. not that i dunwan to go out with you guys. partly (10%) is bcoz i cut my hair. SHY!

better apologize to me ok. hmmmph~

Where have i been?

2008-08-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

I just cant stop laughing ha ha ha ha!!!

2008-08-21T17:43:00.005+08:00

我而家连饭都唔食，会都吾开，就係要听你解释阿！你解释啦！你解释啦！解释阿！解释阿！解释阿！ 解释阿！！！！

Bless me the knowledge

2008-08-20T01:30:00.002+08:00

My aunty wants me to help her with all the Chinese Names
and write it out when she name it....... verbally.
Pai Ka Foh la....!!!!

ANY CHINESE INTENSIVE CLASS AVAILABLE?!

Will people read this?

2008-08-18T00:29:00.002+08:00

Tags tags tags tags tags... maybe this is karma of what i always did last time.
since im so boring. oh well. lucky u... =)

What is your current mood?
I am missing someone and wondering what are they doing now

Current obssession?
TVB.

Now, describe your dream girl --------- i dont have a dream girl but i always envy them
The eyes
big and watery? i duno la.

The nose
sharp? i like tavia's nose. or kristy yang

Eyebrown
curve?

Lips
I anti dry and chapped lips. sexy red lips would be ideal~

Face
kuaci face

Skin
tan, maybe fair. depends

Hair
long and short. depends. i kinda hate fringe.

Additional features?
slim legs? sexy body?

When did you realised that you like these kinda girl?
when i watch tv. i adore,envy, jealous of lots of actress....... coz they are prettier than me hahahaha

Now, describe your dream guy
The eyes
Not too big not too small. double eye lid =D

The nose
Definitely not button nose. i hate my nose.

Eyebrown
THICK!!!!!!!!!!!

Lips
I anti dry and chapped lips. sexy red lips would be ideal~

Face
Big!

Skin
Fair. not too fair. but fair

Hair
Short. Short n Short.

Additional features?
errrrr.......... side burn? long long long 1.. long until its linked with the goatie.
not like those ancient china pek la. like those hongkies?

When did you realised that you like these kinda guy?
Few weeks back when i met 1 during an event. i havent tried this before, my heart kept on pumping when i see him. he is not very handsome but his side burn and thick eyebrowns caught my attention.

What is your ambition?
Outstanding person. but..... i have to put lots of efforts.

Make a wish
I hope my wish come true.

Now Tag
i tag no one. coz i know no body will do these kinda lame ques. ha ha hah

i want my 30 mins back

2008-08-15T02:03:00.004+08:00

I took my bath, woar my pyjamas
and mr bear called ask me to go yumcha
i changed my clothes, spray perfume and all
went there for 30 mins just to see him eat nasi lemak
and talk less than 10 sentences only.

petrol very expensive tau

Just stranggle me

2008-08-13T02:33:00.004+08:00

YESSSS!!!!
i just won lottery!!!!!!! i won rm 8k!!!!!! number is 0727 Magnum!
i am going to Hong Kong and stay there for a very long time.
Weee!~~~~~~ which means i will have a chance..or more.. to bump onto those actress or actors..
maybe i can befriend with them.
maybe they stay near my aunty's house.
Oh yea, Ng Kai Wah live upstairs of my aunty's house.
eventhough he is old and not popular anymore. still, i met one.
and he was once very popular okay =P

Mr Daniel is my brother schoolmate!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The world is so small..
he came to my house and he still remembers me~
he is still so handsome as usual.

My dad is buying me a Bmw 3 series
coz the waja is too old and lousy for me...
my wish has come true!!!! ive been waiting for this day for ages..
10 years before, my house is the best in my area, 10 years later, my house is the worst
so now, i am shifting to Sierramas.
My dad design the bangalow. i get to design my own rool as well. My room has a 42 inch plasma, king size bed, mini fridge, personal gym and a small jacuzzi. Eventhough i live there during my working year, but still i get to live there.

I am getting a dog. a toy poddle inside and a golden retriver outside. wooohoo!!!
Lastly, i am going to Uk to persue my studies after i complete my foundation. goin to live with my cousin in Uk.

My mom is giving me my atm, credit card and platinum card back.!!!

Look at the time now.
its 2.56am
time to -dream-. ciao~

Learn to love yourself =)

2008-08-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

Pain

2008-08-10T20:22:00.002+08:00

Debts..

i know i owe u alot

Girl and Boy

2008-08-10T18:40:00.002+08:00

He said he wants to bring me to Velvet
then said wants to bring me to Maison

i said no.

i hope i made the right decision.

I swear.

2008-08-05T01:04:00.003+08:00

I've been slurring super a lot of vulgarities today
In the exam hall
In my car
At home
Msn
In my dreams
With my friends

From 10am till now. 1.14am, and still counting..

I just feel like choking u.

All sorts of thoughts in my mind

2008-08-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

When we hear someone talking bad about others
Do we really have the rights to talk about it since we are not perfect and everyone has their own weaknesses.

when we know someone is about to fail
do we really have the rights to look down, discriminate and prejudge them as if we are the most successful person in this world. --Successful people failed thousand times to succeed.

When we know person A hates person B and vice versa and u are a friend of A and B
should we talk bad, critic person B when we are having a conversation with person A
and critic person A when talking with with person B?
just to remain the friendship.

We strive hard, but when we know the results is not as good as what we expected, we still strive hard. why?

2 friends to choose. the one who cares for u but always takes benefits from u. or, the one who dont really care for u, but doesnt really takes benefits from u.

Is it right to complain when we cannot get what we craved for (expensive stuff) when others see ur life as wonderful and fulfilling.

is money more important or happiness?

To the infinity, and beyonD!

2008-08-03T00:52:00.003+08:00

the horny mosquito stung my ass while i was peeing.
now it is so so so so so *effin* itchy!

i am not scratching ok.

Today, someone in the exam hall farted sooo loudly
and it is so so so *effin* smelly!!

and i am still breathing~

It says close at 5, but they close at 4.45.

2008-08-01T16:57:00.002+08:00

Uh ohh..
i screwed something up again..

please dont call me
please dont scold me
please dont ask me
please dont force me

sorry

Should i smile or should i cry?

2008-07-31T20:00:00.002+08:00

Enough? not enough?

i asked, tvb, why before my exams
astro, should i thank you?
you cut the bloody line 2 days before my exam!
i want to watch moonlight resonance episode 4 and 5

Doing some trades in some forum
Yeahh!! i got business, Booo!!! they bank me the money without the postage fees
now i have to bear all the postage fees?!
'' you send to me the items 1st, then i will send u to postage fees after i received it''
u think there will be such honest people on earth?

Thanks to my intelligence, im able to solve some maths equation, im motivated to study
but the bloody air cond ran out of gas!! and it is blowling hot air! the air is hotter than outside.
and there are ants, mosquitoes all around!
i clean my room, wipe my table, tidy up things. and end up getting more insects. WTF?
always have obstacles when i really want to study.

Went to college early in the morning.
and..
Exam dockets can be collected only on Friday at 3pm. cool!
'Ms grace is scolding students like mad cow again'
My marketing results, assignments mark is stated as = DNS (did not submit)

Lastly, my phone line is still barred!!!!
im so fucking frustrated with it!! i have to make so many urgents calls and replies,but.. my phone is barred.

everything is barred, COME AND CUT MY ELECTRIC AND WATER ALSO LA!!!!!

Hari Jadi ku

2008-07-28T17:23:00.002+08:00

My birthday
Friday - Desa Park City , My house
Saturday - Sky Bar
Sunday - Sky Bar, Gardens. midvalley, Dark Knight

My brother punch my right eye with his so solid knuckles. OUCH!

25/7/2008

2008-07-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

Today, my friends are kind to celebrate my bday for me.
but Today, i wasn't in the mood bcoz i think i am going to flunk my maths.

should be a happy day for me. but, ..
i just can't stop thinking of my results.

I am sorry i dont know how to entertain you guys.
Sorry to make you feel bored. I feel bad.

BUT, THANK YOU FOR MAKING SUCH A DAY FOR ME..
i really appreciate that.

P/S : i am super shy okay. i swear.

going to traders hotel for a swim tmrw.. go? dont go? study? relax?

My life is such a torture

2008-07-25T15:02:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i wish that i could encounter the stress of being criticized than encountering the stress of exams and parents.

i wish i can earn my own money now and my business is nobody business.
i really hope to earn some cash now......
i really hope to.....
so desperately....

Am i the only person she asked??

2008-07-24T13:33:00.004+08:00

10 minutes before class dismiss, Eugene texted me telling me that he is reaching in 5 mins time
5 minutes later he called and he said he reached, dont keep him waiting..

so after class, without asking ms himalaa what i wanted to ask..
i rushed to McD (from LT4 to McD)...
on the way... in the middle of the corridor

I bumped onto Mrs Chua, she stopped me and asked,
Mrs Chua : Whats your name?
Me : Carmen
Mrs : (very loud) where are all ur manners? i see u walking up and down, why didnt u wish me good afternoon??
Me : (wanted to say i did smile to u!!!.. but thinking of Eugene waiting.. i gave her a smile and walked away)

Few steps away from Mrs Chua, Ms winnie pass by,
Ms Winnie : What happened?
Mrs Chua : This girl is from my class last sem, i always see her walking around but didnt bother to wish me.

AND EVERYONE THERE IS LOOKING AT ME!!!!! ~~ so embarrasing

Me : &^$#&*)*#$%^&!!@#% !!! and walks even faster to mcD..

Delicious supper

2008-07-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

My brother is kind enough to make and serve me

Turkey Sandwich ..

VELI NICE OK!

Flufffy

2008-07-19T13:25:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU

A joke to share

2008-07-19T12:56:00.001+08:00

Being Hongkies is good because...
1. We are Hongkies and not Chinese.
2. We can talk and shout and nobody gives a damn.
3. Jackie Chan is our icon.
4. We can live in a 5' x 5' cubicle and call it luxury apartment.We even need to pay $10,000 a month for this cubicle.
5. Our children can speak Cantonese at a young age.
6. We get to blame everything on Feng Shui or Tung Chee Hwa or the mainland communists.
7. Gambling is more interesting than sex.Macau is the place to for thrills!
8. We produce a lot of Miss Hong Kong to the enjoyment of the rich and famous.

We love being Singaporean because...
1. We are not Malaysians.
2. Everyone (especially the Malaysian) hates us, except ourselves.
3. Famous for Orchard Road and we love Geylang.Geylang is the place to go for thrills!
4. We have our own island.
5. We will never ever have yucky chewing gum stuck under our shoes.
6. We know how to enjoy our vacation in Malaysia - keep a few RM50 notes before you enter the highway: You can throw anything, anytime, anywhere and always wash our cars at the resort.
7. We can speed up to 180 kilometers per hour and not ending up with a summon as long as we have RM50 with us to spare.
8. The men are always concerned, first question to ask a girl "Do you have CPF?"
9. Never fear of getting lost in our country - S$20 taxi ride will get you into the sea.Hahaha!
10. We'll never have to worry about finding Mr or Ms right because the government will find one for us.
11. 1 Singapore dollar = 2.5 Ringgit... nyek nyek nyek.
12. It's OK to be Kiasu.It's part of our culture.

Top reasons for being Indonesian are as follow...
1. We are not Australian.
2. We live in the biggest country in South East Asia .
3. No pirates in Indonesia water if you exclude the Navy and Coast guards.
4. Everything is cheap, even our salaries...
5. We can blame everything to Suharto or BJ Habibie or Gus Dur or Megawati or who's next?
6. Only in Indonesia you can get involved in real demonstrations daily for different causes and see no results.
7. Our Rupiah is like a Yo Yo, it can go up and down just because IMF say so...
8. We burn everything and nobody gives a damn.We cause haze all over the South East Asia and nobody can do a thing... nyek nyek nyek.
9. We don't need fire fighters as our neighbours will provide...

Being a Malaysian is the best because...
1. World tallest twin towers, Best F1 circuit, largest roti canai, most expensive toll rates, ...because Malaysia Boleh!
2. We can be driving, picking our nose, cursing another driver, talking on the handphone, adjusting the radio and bribing the traffic police at the same time.
3. We divorce by sending SMS.
4. Traffic summon can be settled on the spot with the traffic police.
5. We have Teh Tarik Roti Canai on the Russian space ship.
6. We can save a lot of electricity b'coz our TV shows are so crappy.
7.We can blame everything on the haze or George Soros or government or opposition parties or...
8. Resourceful City Council, one person to drive the van, one to carry the ladder, one to change a street's bulb and three others watching...
9. We make 2 lane trunk roads into 3 lane highway and back to 2 lane when polices are sighted
10. There's always something for the JKR to do.They dig, resurface the road, dig and resurface...
11. All main roads are designated highway because it gives Velooo a reason to collect toll.
12. Our government can never be wrong.
13. Our badminton players win already only need to pay them RM35,000 very cheap compare to David Beckham.
14. You can divorce for as little as RM 10 million ringgit and marry a young singer you like, how nice is life.
15. We can even used C4 bomb to bombard Gengkis Khan or Kublai Khan grandchildren
16. We have more water than Singapore ...nyek nyek nyek.
17. If you got no monies you can also snatch others people monies
18. If you are a policeman rider you can kick and bang people car like nobody business
19. If you drive a police car, you can speed cause speed limit only apply to citizen
20. All motor rider can join Mat Rempit club for free and can throw stones at the police station anytime they like.
21. If you got nothing to do join the rela and go to the kongsi gelap and extort monies from them.
22. You can rape people and blame them for wearing very little, what a joke man.

After reading the above, I believe you will agree with me that being Malaysian is still the best.You have to be glad that you are a Malaysian and enjoy staying in Malaysia! You can do what you like as long as you got the * .` x * $ #-)!#$

Online shopping

2008-07-19T12:45:00.003+08:00

I am obsessed with http://forum.lowyat.net/ !!

bought a lot of stuff there especially clothes, cheap cheap cheap cheap!!! but duno whether they willl cheat me or not.

check this out
http://picasaweb.google.com/sweetie1028

cheap cheap cheap!!

Speechless

2008-07-18T12:59:00.002+08:00

Today, i woke up really late and skipped 2 classes AGAIN!
i skipped 4 classes this week already.
I am really afraid that maths quiz will be conducted today.. that 10% is really very important to me..!!
i am really afraid that i couldnt catch up with my studies
and I AM REALLY AFRAID THAT I WILL FAIL AGAIN!!

i didnt intend to skip. i told myself i have to pay more attention
i get all the questions ready, skim through all the tutorial questions.
but why when i have such inspiration, there will be so much of obstacles?!

and i am feeling really bad and guilty. i lose my appetite.
SSCCCCRRREEEAAAMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wo De Tian Ah~~~~~~~~ T.T

2008-07-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

2 weeks, the bad luck mode is still on. when can this be switched off??
i am feeling very frustrated and tired.

Since my computer is still down for some unknown reasons,
Had frequent outings with friends. even at night.. just to kill time.

supposed to go to pasar malam but Wai loon fly my aeroplane
and he said i fly his aeroplane. wth
Went (Forced) to eat steamboat with Soon Kian, Wai Loon, Hong Yun bla bla bla..
after that i wanted to go back, Wai Loon send me back, i was just 0.3242 metre to home, and i can feel the clutch. and he drove the car back to Kepong..
Since Soon Kian (begged) asked me not to go back, ok lo, i go.. actually i didnt say anything.. they bring me back to jalan ipoh and *spoof* back to kepong.
12pm - 4am. drinking and talking. i was kinda worried actually. I am the only girl (they said they are not interested in raping me ) and .. I HAVENT BATHE!!.. they said nevermind also.. =.='' Had lots of gays controversial issues.. haha

Due to what happened to me recently, i had insomnia!!! after so much of drinkings and staying up late, i still have problems sleeping. this is so so so torturing. and those pimples are popping out happily.. Thats why i look damn ugly now, and thats why im not going out with anyone now. Next week la Mr Bear.

My phone is barred, so, DONT ASK ME WHY I DIDNT REPLY .

my computer is still down. and i have no idea whats wrong with it. JORDAN!!! see what u can do.
i was so happy collecting my computer back from the technician. thought i can finally use the desktop instead of laptop, but crash crash, system error, jam! bloody hell!!! and i spent so much petrol travelling to shops buying and changing discs. PLUS the rm60 just to on the computer. Can on also no use, cannot do anything also...

My car now is in critical condition, everywhere leaking oil.. have to take it to service soon, buy car handle people want to cheat my money so i dint buy, now my car look very hidious with the dented part, cracked windscreen, scratches everywhere. i hate that car now. and it's always out of petrol!!!

Fluffy is still missing. Don't think the frog-faced thief will return. If you dont treat fluffy better than me, i swear i will curse u to have 1 year of bad luck, hp barred, pay edi still bar coz paid to the wrong account. then got emergency cannot call!! and car battery burn and explode!! your computer got ALL sorts of virus, then when u want to retrieve ur very important file, ur harddisc crash! all files gone! buy new car give lori bang, 1st day of work spill coffee on ur boss table and shirt, go overseas airplane explode!... i pray for all these to come true if u treat fluffy as a slave or sell her to some barbarians.

I did not did my quiz well. and skipped alot alot alot alot of classes. i had a really bad day for quiz, was 30 mins late for marketing quiz and rush all the questions, and i forgot to bring my stats text to read, so.. spent my 2 hours doing nothing and dream. at last, laying eggs in the exam hall. Assignments are due, and ive not done any coz i thought it's due on the following week. All of a sudden Ms himalaa ask me to handup my assignment. really sucks man! and last min i dont know who can help me out. i dont even understand the questions but thanks to Jill, she DID all my assignments for me. i really feel bad skipping so many classes and asked someone to do my assignments for me. and what i did was, trying to fix that idiotic computer of mine and watch tv.

I think i had enough of punishments. Can u forgive me now?
Soon kian, Kian yi, Benjamin ... bon voyage! enjoy urself and good luck for ur future undertakings in japan n singapore. Take Care! =) .. hope this sentence can help me to reduce my sins and bad lucks =P

Stop playing with me!!

2008-07-10T14:20:00.003+08:00

i really couldnt describe my feelings now.

For what happened yesterday and

NOW FLUFFY IS MISSSSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my emotions has been seriously affected.
don't mess with me.

i am totally devastated. URGH!!!!!

I am colour blind. my world is black and white

2008-07-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

GREAT!!!

Now my motherboard is dead

which means all my files is GONE!!

u ask me how do i feel now?
i felt even worst than consuming drugs and get addicted to it.

i was so worried throughout the wholeday. i scheduled myself to study but when this happened, i couldnt do anything! i am lost, despair, and heartbroken. sobs!

I really FEEL LIKE SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went back to stonage

2008-07-09T14:39:00.003+08:00

First, my car battery went kuku..
second day, it went to heaven

Then, yesterday, i have difficulties switching my computer on until i off and on the main power
then today, same thing happened. but the damn computer cannot on.
and the powerbox went to heaven too.

And then, my handphone, the battery went to heaven too.

3 most important things i live with. went to heaven!!!

IT'S ALL RELATED TO BATTERIES!!! ..

Maybe God took all these away from me to make me STUDY!~ sigh...

Blardy tired

2008-06-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today is a super lethargic day for me
Supposed to go to the zooo, yeap, i am indeed very excited!
but i barely can open my eyes.
After i had my lunch.. i headed to slumberland..
till 7.30pm, i still cant open my eyes, i am feeling so weak and tired..
Till fluffy hop on me and licked my ears, scratched my lips with her sharp paws and barked...
Can u imagine how tired i am.

Now i crave for sushi hehehe.
the stupid totoya almost banged me! reverse without double checking whether got car or not.
i was like 0.0000001 seconds to hell. and he dint even stop! thank god i survived =)

A day to remember =D

2008-06-18T16:21:00.002+08:00

WeeeEEEeeEEeeeEeeeEEeee!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM DAMN HAPPY TODAY OKAY!!!!!!

not because i bought 3 tees
not because stats paper is over
not because i won money
not because of the movie is funny
not because my maid is back
not because won the game

it's because of...
tell u guys also u wont understand =P

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just felt like im flying ~wee~~

I have difficulties reading chinese. HELP!!!

2008-06-17T16:58:00.003+08:00

THE WEATHER IS SO BURNING HOT!!!!
I switched on the air cond for 5 hours, yet i am still sweating.
and i am sneezing the whole day, guess i am catching a cold~

My maid is back! Once she came back, i am damn boring.
I've no idea what to do besides studying but im not in the mood to study..
Got abit not used to it. coz i've been doing all the house chores..
Should i feel happy or sad? maybe happy, coz i dont have to cook.. throw rubbish.. and smells like 1 = ) .. my house also look cleaner and tidier. and i can sleep till 11am!!! hehehe!!

no class this week. should be studying like a nerd but i am playing games like a nerd.
dint even touch the book.
I know i have to study, but just dont feel like doing so. Feeling thrill? not really until results are announce.

I've downloaded lots of movies thesedays, download like mad! .. who ask my dad's connection so fast? hehhe..

Gosh! i pray for a torrential rain~

should i go out with JT? hmmm.. still thinking.

MY BROTHER CUT FLUFFY'S FUR WITH A PAIR OF SCISSORS!!.. she looks funny. and looks like a hamster.

Can i pass my Finate Maths?

2008-06-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EXAM PERIOD IS STARTING TMRW!!!!!!!!!!

MATHS TMRW @ 2PM..

I am feeling very tired and hungry throughout the whole day...
Slacking my time off telling myself this exam consist of 20% only
and spent the whole time calculating marks..

I am so sick of studying.. oh, no. I havent started anythin yet since quiz 1.
College is so boring. Studyin is so boring. Class is even worst.

I almost fall asleep during marketing class today. eyes were very heavy...
My group members didnt come, so, i was alone. maybe bcoz of that i felt sleepier.

EXAM IS SO BORING LAH!!!!!! I DONT FEEL LIKE STUDYING ALSO..
Having THE WHATEVER-LAH ATTITUDE...

have to think of a way to study really smart and geniously but uses very very little time hehehe
... how i wish i can sit for the exam now and i can kick back and relax~
next paper on wed mah. don't care lah. damn tired of books edi.

Passion~

2008-06-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

Someone once said, " If you don't have a passion worthy dying for, you have nothing worth living for. If you are not willing to suffer for something, you really aren't passionate about anything."

The question is, what are you passionate about? What's that something that causes you to look forward to the day ahead the moment you wake up in the morning? What's that something that causes your blood to pump hard and gets you adrenaline rushes the moment you think about it? What's that something that causes you to react like Popeye the Sailor when he says, “That's all I can stands, and I can't stands no more!” and you must make a stand for that something?

So, what are YOU passionate about?

Even when you have something you are passionate about, the real question is,

Is what you are passionate about worth living and suffering for?

Good luck come, bad luck go~

2008-06-11T09:51:00.002+08:00

Why am i so unlucky thesedays???

What makes me cannot sleep for the whole night...

THE MAID WHO CAME TO WASH TOILETS... IRON MY CLOTHES WHICH ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IRON!!....

why she like to do something extra when i only pay her RM30...
now my clothes has white stripes on it.. is a lot. back and front, and also side!!

My FAVOURITE top tank okay... i dont think i can get it in Nichi again..
i wore it twice only....

What a day! and today, due to sleep deprivation, i woke up late and have to rush rush rush!!
Lucky i am 1 step earlier, when i stepped into the class, Himalaa was taking attendance, almost finishing. hehe..

Hope to go shopping again and grab some nice clothes.. and I WILL SETTLE ALL MY CLOTHES MYSELF!!

i am hungry. FOOOOD!!! bon apetite~ LEt's feast!!!!!!

I miss my maid

2008-06-10T13:29:00.002+08:00

MY MOM IS SO BARBAROUS!!!!!!!!!
before my maid went back, she said she will do everything. once she stepped into the plane, my mom forced me to do everything and even yelled at me asking me to do all the house chores.
And when i wanted to study, she yelled and...... and me to wash clothes
and when i cook, she said that i am useless coz i duno how to cook. SAD!!!

before my brother enrol this this Sri KDU, my mom said and promised that she will fetch and send him to school.. after that.. i am the one who do all the sendings! and never give me money for toll and petrol... =(

How bad!

and she............ singing Karaoke everynight...

Yesterday, she woke me up at 8am.. yelled at me, screamed, shouted... just to ask me to throw the rubbish!!! i have to chase the rubbish truck with my pyjamas and i am braless okay...

so embarrasing~

knock knock

2008-06-09T02:25:00.004+08:00

haha.. finally i am willing to blog. Leaving my blog dead can be fun at times. haha..
My life? Is bombarded with maths. and i never ever never ever like it! ..
No pictures will be uploaded so soon bcoz.. my line is still dead.

So i went to Pavilion today for Kung Fu Panda. its hilarious man. not super. i can expect what happen next. but still, i laughed my ass off. some fighting parts are boring, maybe i am not interested with those scenes. bores me offfff... but overall, the movie is okay. nice, funny and.. what-so-ever.

Joanna just texted me asking me whether i want to join her for a study session. Wow~! sounds like she's putting effort. * thumbs up * and i.. still watching tv EVERYDAY. slack EVERYDAY and still keep in mind that exams are still farrrr away EVERYDAY.. and 1 more thing, I FXXKXXG HATE DOING HOUSE CHORES!!! Especially do all the smelly laundry.. AND also cooking! makes me smells like onion and chicken only. or maybe fish!.. If my maid never come back.. i will curse her till the max until .... * jagalah kelakuan anda * ... anyway, my friends, u have to force me to study very frequently okay.. motivate me and also give me inspiration~ =)

My dad. he is so rich thesedays. he shop at Ferrogamo.. which means, i can leech his money as much as i want *evil grins* !! its something like that, when he is rich, we can open his wallet and grab some cash. and also ask for pocket money..petrol fee.. and some for shopping. but! when he is poor, and if i take rm100.. he will say, '' u think im ur atm machine?! ,i wonder when can u earn ur own money and give me some pocket money ''.. blah blah blah.. so before this wednesday, before he fly to sabah again.. it's a vow for myself that i have to be a million dollar daughter. Sometimes, i just hate him going to Sabah.. make me poor only. My dad will always pay rmxxxx for his branded stuff, and i always pay rm xx for my fake branded stuff. NOT FAIR OKAY!! and it's so embarrasing~

It's been years since the last time i went shopping, and to avoid mr alex asking me when was the last time i went for shopping, after midterm. must must must must go bangsar shop! Zhaoying, i book u edi ar. must always standby for my call hehehe.. i just cant wait for my hair to GROW! and oh! i want that freaking handbag and zara shoe~~~!!!!!!

i went to a wedding dinner. the bride is sooooo hyper super duper preety, gorgeous, hot, tall, fair and sexy and the bridegroom is.. so... worst than average with double layered crimson red lips.. hehehe.. guess this is true love? and this guy who sat in the opposite table, he kept on looking at me .. even my aunty said i dressed great that night. i guess beauty is my confidence! not wisdom hahahahaha nehni nehni bubububu...

To those who i just mentioned.. please mention me, CARMEN LIM in ur blog tau?
if not, i angry =p

XOXO OXOX

Beautiful without maths

2008-05-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

All i want to say is

*PUI!!*

MATHS, I HATE YOU!!

STAY AWAY FROM ME !!!

YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE !!!

I AM GOING TO BURN THE HELL OUT OF YOU

YOU ARE AN ASS WHO RUINED MY BEAUTIFUL LIFE

RAWWRRRR

OUCH.

Don't call me Aunty

2008-05-04T20:52:00.003+08:00

Hmmm.. I just realized that my grandma has become a great great grandmother 20 years ago.
Experiencing motherhood in your 20's? That's the ritual in my grandma side.
I just can't imagine how life would be. Very complicated family.
They are calling me.. Aunty? wtf? and he is like 10 years elder than me married and his daughter's full moon is today. Plus, i am not allowed to call them kor kor. I have to call them by their names.
Didnt know someone elder have to respect me xD

Blabber my life off..

2008-05-04T01:05:00.004+08:00

Sizzler Sizzler Sizzler...
Malaysia weather is always sizzling hot
My skin can burn instantly when it touches the sunlight
well.. actually my holiday was great ..
I am officially broke! Trust me, this time i am not lying.
Hey God, i am having some financial problem, can you loan me money?
and i will do all the good deeds. i pray for the refugees... i help the person i hate..
My mom caught me watching porn.. i was just so awkward
Actually i am not as corrupted as what you have expected.
I was watching an unrated movie and during the sex scene, she caught me. awww..
Nyehh.. it's college now. pathetic i would say
I swear to God, if i ever flunk any subject this semester, i will definitely stop college.
Stop wasting money when you dont even know how to earn money.
It's a sin to waste someone elses money
Yeap, please do believe in karma.. do more good deeds..
You don't know how expert i am with this karma thingy..
I am just too lazy to upload pictures. you cant blame me,
Blame the internet connection i have.. It's slower than a snail
Guess i have to consider fibre optic. Patience can always waste time =)
Why am i so into books thesedays? I am desperate for books.. can u believe that?!?!
Or to be precise, i just want to master that particular language. and i mean it.
and guess what? I am done with One Tree Hill Season 1-4.
In this show, i've learned, discovered and recalled about myself, my life and my past.
I basically brought myself to Tree Hill. and i guess i love William Shakespear's poems.
Sometimes, i thought of doing english literature because.. i am influenced by Lucas
haha... *chuckles*.. haha... and i like it when Sophia Bush blink her eye. mesmerizing~
Thanks to my lovely friend who is always busy preparing for her exams
Now i am crazy for aloe vera but how pathetic it is? i can't afford to buy...
you must be wondering why the hell i want aloe vera. google it!
Guess i am still not too late for radiant skin and silky hair??? .. hehee
Speaking about friends. Do not expect so much from them.
Best friend can betray, best friend can be your worst enemy.
But anyhow, i've made up my mind. whether you like me or not.
or i am the very last person you think of, or maybe i doesnt even exist in your world
i will be good to you.
You know, karma. haha.. but if you try to use me. like friends with benefits
then i wish you can burn in hell and your life will be worst than mine.
It's faith that, i just cant escape from the clutches of Ms Himalaa. so embarrasing
I must change. If i am a guy, i would call myself a geek. i duno what u name that for girls..
It very nice to express my feelings here where i don't get sarcastic or disappointed feedback
I personally thinks that blogging is like revealing all your personal inner feelings or thoughts to the world. or your daily routines. Everything exposed.
Life is pretty dull without friends who don't party isnt it?
I used to love party. Yea, someone like Brooke Davis. =P but, your change friends, life changed
I long for hot guys.. Bald especially. *slutty*
I felt vulnerable.

Chuckles.

I hate presentation

2008-04-30T11:20:00.001+08:00

College wasnt that good after all

I made the wrong decision.
I hate the first come first serve basis thingy!

I have the sudden urge to

2008-04-26T01:17:00.003+08:00

-Bump into Mrs Chua and heartfeltly thank her
-Get a hot , mascular , tall and handsome guy to seduce Mr Murali's wife XD
-Be invinsible, fart so hard in the lift and make the lift smells worst than the city dump
-Sneak into the gents and pinch the lucky ones ass and run away
-Stick my forehead to someone forehead and blink my eye
-Go college with boxers and sunflower bra only
-Stick my gorgeous picture in every toilet cubicle
-Scream 'HELLLLLLLLLLLOOO BIITTCHHH!!!' with a very high pitch in Ms Grace ears
-Burp 19 times continuously infront of the stage and force for applause
-Participate a american idol like competition called 'smoother ass' competition and bribe the judge for the champion of the champion
-Be a teacher for 1 day and dig my nose in the class + teach students the technique to dig
-Switch all the proton cars no plate in the car park and record the situation
-Flip through yellow pages and prank call someone saying that i am God

I know i am disgusting and irritating enough to continue the rest.
Back to my Mitch Albom.

p/s. Currently obssessed with bald guys. Mesmerizing betul .. LOL

Even the artist reads this book

2008-04-26T01:05:00.002+08:00

I hate my hair

2008-04-25T21:11:00.002+08:00

Screw my body for being so fat
Screw my hormones for producing so much oil
Screw my skin for whatever it is
Screw myself for disgracing myself
Screw my anger for losing
Screw my pride and my ego
Screw everything in this world!

SCREW!

I screwed it up

2008-04-24T18:50:00.003+08:00

Do you think how it would have been sometimes

How hard for me to live, i am sorry i screwed things up.

If we could only turn back time

In my head I keep on looking back

I wonder what it was that made you change

If I said that we could turn it back

Right back to the start

Would you take the chance and make the change

To fix a friendship doesn't only involve both of us

but friends, people and environment.

What you want me to do, to fix it?

Alzheimer??

2008-04-24T18:46:00.001+08:00

I always forget thesedays.

After a blink of an eye, i forget.

But what makes it so memorable that can make me remember until the day i die?

Wanna try my fist?

2008-04-24T15:55:00.003+08:00

My holiday has come to an end.
which means.. results will announce pretty soon

Please allow me to be rude for 1 day
I need to release stress
You know the feeling of waiting for results especially
when results will be announcing tomorrow.

What i did today wasnt successful
I found out something bad.
Someone BETRAYED me
Is this a sign?

<3

2008-04-23T15:34:00.002+08:00

There are people around the world
different faces different names
But there's one true emotion
tells me that we're the same..

Find a guy who follows your heart.
and be blessed with eternal love =)

Vroooom??

2008-04-23T13:11:00.002+08:00

Just 1-2 days after the accident during Boon Teng's birthday

This is what happened for the 2 black waja at home.

If i win, RM12 million will be in my pocket. Let's just say i put this sum of money under FD.

RM30K will come to me every month without doing anything.

My dream of being a millionaire had just vanished.

Isnt this something awesome?

I felt that the angel of death is protecting me

I felt vulnerable driving thesedays as what happened recently.

I was driving along the highway and cars almost bang me

I was infront of the construction site and the trailer almost bang me

Speeding can take your life away. If you are unlucky.

I am still feeling very scared of what had just happened on the road,

yes. the trailer stopped. Its big metal solid body is going to bang me if the driver didnt stop!

It's beside me, not the front nor the back

On the other hand, i thank God that i am safe.

I learn my lesson

Penang anyone?

2008-04-20T19:26:00.002+08:00

I went jogging during my trip

I went to TAR College, Penang

i miss penang

Carmen the Incredible Wonder Gurl

oh?

jump

Gg

suck

s

no chemistry

n

pinch

why

regret

i lost everything

Hd

que tu m'aimes encore

little black crow

bahh

love vs money

sheau wen & pn suriaty

张智霖和靓靓

capping streamyx?

gill paul

1u with edwin

Bernice at 1u

Just For Fun

DONT TALK TO ME

happy cny!

blog updated

sad

psychotic movi4

bye bye drum

plastic bag n box

funny

boring

church

hair

Halehlujah won't attract *ehem*

Pretty woman... walking down the street..

1 fine sunny day.

ENJOY!

My mom is singing karaoke again

Sexually and Mentally Harrasted.

What happens when we Die?

Picture do the talking

I am dehydrated.

Where have i been?

Where have i been?

I just cant stop laughing ha ha ha ha!!!

Bless me the knowledge

Will people read this?

i want my 30 mins back

Just stranggle me

Learn to love yourself =)

Pain

Girl and Boy

I swear.

All sorts of thoughts in my mind

To the infinity, and beyonD!

It says close at 5, but they close at 4.45.

Should i smile or should i cry?

Hari Jadi ku

25/7/2008

My life is such a torture

Am i the only person she asked??

Delicious supper

Flufffy

A joke to share

Online shopping

Speechless

Wo De Tian Ah~~~~~~~~ T.T

Stop playing with me!!

I am colour blind. my world is black and white

I went back to stonage

Blardy tired

A day to remember =D

I have difficulties reading chinese. HELP!!!

Can i pass my Finate Maths?

Passion~

Good luck come, bad luck go~

I miss my maid

knock knock

Halehlujah won't attract ehem